I want to appreciate …

“ I want to appreciate the times when moments are made into memories. I want to embrace them, cherish them, and never forget that they come so few and far between.I know that wherever life takes me,
these moments will always follow. They remind me of what’s truly important. It’s not just life, but living. 
It’s the journey, the destination, and all the points in between.
And I must admit, I like what I see. ”

i'm scared

“ I’m scared and I don’t say that often. But I can’t stand the fact that you could hurt me. I don’t like being this close, but I love it. You’re my everything and I hate it. Because you have everything you need to break me. And I’m not saying you will, but I’m scared. ”

                                                                       AnGel FatiMa..♥

Everything waz perfect

“ I think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish
 they could just freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or
still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer.
 Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop.
 The world would stop t”urning & people would stop changing. Because to them,
 at that time, everything was perfect. 

AnGel FatiMa..♥

Thanks to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart biggerThanks to those who envied me, you made my self esteem grow
Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important
Thanks to those who worried, you let me know that some of you actually care
Thanks to those who left, you showed me that not everything is forever
Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me the meaning of persistence and love
Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.. 

And 

Forgive my insecurities. I want to be perfect, but it usually doesn’t happen the way I’d like it to.Forgive my insecurities. At times I am hypocritical and my own worst critic. I do not mean to push my expectations of myself upon you.Forgive my insecurities. I seek affirmation because I am insecure. My life has not been easy and I do not always handle the effects of life in the best way.Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes I do not understand the way I feel and I cannot put a name on my emotions. I just exist.Forgive my insecurities. I was born with a certain personality and I cannot change who I am. I try to morph my faults into attributes but I often fail. I want to be cool and fun but who I am gets in the way.Forgive my insecurities. I am human. I must deal with this fact daily. Every morning I pray I do not screw up and make a fool out of myself.Forgive my insecurities. I have been let down and harbor a huge fear of letting you down.Forgive my insecurities. I am a work in progress. I am always changing, attempting to become a better person, but I don’t always know who I am and where I stand.Forgive my insecurities. I need to be loved and held. I do not mean to be clingy. Sometimes, for an unknown reason, I feel worthless and unwanted. I just want to know differently.Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes my brain works faster then my tongue and my words don’t come out right and I feel stupid. Sometimes my tongue works faster then my brain and I say stupid things.Forgive my insecurities. I am not very good at accurately expressing myself. Some things I do or say may come across as something other then what I mean.
Forgive my insecurities. I care very much about you but I do not want to be nosy or overbearing. I am always trying to walk the line.Forgive my insecurities. I want to help but sometimes I end up hurting you. I do not want to hurt you.Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes I annoy myself. I cannot imagine how much I annoy you and this frightens me.
Forgive my insecurities. My heart has been broken. I try to force myself past my fears because I do not want to be afraid, but it often doesn’t work.Forgive my insecurities. For every success, I have ten failures.Forgive my insecurities. I want to be the best friend I can be but there are times when I don’t make the right decisions.Forgive my insecurities. I am stubborn and love being independent. When I lose my independence I feel weak. I hate feeling weak. This same hatred of feeling weak makes me afraid to cry.Forgive my insecurities. For I am truly and deeply sorry. Forgive me. 

If you guys out there asking for what is my wishes

Forgiveness is all I ask. Nothing more. I ask for forgiveness for all my failures in the past, and all my failures to come. Forgiveness for failing everyone, but myself.

AnGel FatiMa..♥

Lost InsIde Your Love...

you came in my awful life like a magician..
did magic and changed my world...
you made me love you...
i did it...you were falling for me..so badly..♥♥
you Called me at night...night and say.." I love you.."
that moment was the most lovely moment...
i will never let you go...never..
i want you to be in my arms...
you call me your angel..
but baby...ur my life...ur my angel..who changed my Life...
i love you..♥

                                                                           AnGel FaTimA..♥

The ThInG AbouT YOu..

“ The thing about you is you’re fun, you make me laugh, and you make
me feel more alive. Okay,  you make me a little crazy sometimes,
but there are these moments in my mind, crystal-clear
images of you and me and how we fit together, and it all makes such
perfect sense, and I know what I want; I want time with you. ”
AnGel FatiMa..♥

Lost SilenCe

I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you;
but I dare not, for fear you should laugh. 
That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest. 
I make light of my pain, afraid you should do so.

I long to tell you the truest words I have to say to you;
but I dare not, being afraid that you would not believe them. 
That is why I disguise them in untruth,
saying the contrary of what I mean. 
I make my pain appear absurd, afraid that you should do so.

I long to use the most precious words I have for you;
but I dare not, fearing I should not be paid with like value. 
That is why I gave you hard names
and boast of my callous strength. 
I hurt you, for fear you should never know any pain.

I long to sit silent by you;
but I dare not lest my heart come out at my lips. 
That is why I prattle and chatter lightly
and hide my heart behind words. 
I rudely handle my pain, for fear you should do so.

I long to go away from your side;
but I dare not, for fear my cowardice should become known to you. 
That is why I hold my head high
and carelessly come into your presence. 
Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.

  

                                     AnGel FatiMa..♥